Friday, August 01, 2008
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Last night I had a great theological discussion with some of my dearest friends about why bad things happen, where God is or isn't involved in those things and how He promises to use whatever our circumstances are for our ultimate good. I've watched Him do this countless times in my own life, and it's one of the reasons I trust Him fully. I don't know all the answers to how involved He gets in causing things to happen at times or preventing them. All I know is that I owe Him my deepest gratitude tonight.
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Earlier this evening, Jeff and I took on the task of moving bedroom furniture around. Since Bryant has had the dresser that matches Bradley's bunk beds, and he just got the headboard that matched Bradley's dresser, it only made sense to switch out the dressers. This meant that the tall heavy white cabinet in Bry's room had to come out, as there was no longer room for it. So we had dragged it out into the hallway while we were shifting everything around.
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Jeff had gone in our bedroom to do something, and I had just reached down to pull the glider out when I heard my husband scream Bryant's name, followed by Bryant screaming, followed by a loud crash. All I can tell you is a primal sound escaped from deep within me as I knew immediately that he had just pulled the white cabinet over on top of him. When I got to the bedroom door, my deepest fears were realized as I saw the cabinet down but no Bryant. I was screaming and went after that cabinet like it was a predator.
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From what seemed like underwater, I finally heard Jeff saying, "HE'S OKAY. CALM DOWN." He grabbed the cabinet from me so I could get Bryant, who was also screaming at the top of his lungs. I pulled him into my arms so tightly I don't think he could even breathe. But I was just shaking uncontrollably and couldn't stop crying.
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Jeff came in to take Bry from me to try and get him calmed down. My sweet Bailey came in the room and just threw her arms around me and we cried together. She didn't say a word, but when I looked down at her I could see the tears streaming down her face. I sat down in the glider because I literally felt like my legs had turned to jello. Jeff brought Bryant back so I could comfort him, because I think he was just as terrified, if not more, by my reaction to what happened than to what actually happened. He was so, so pitiful. I just can't remember very many times in my life where I was confronted with that kind of mind-numbing fear.
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It turns out that what saved my baby was the diaper genie. It, too, had been dragged into the hallway. So when Bryant tried to open the doors and pulled too hard because they were locked, the cabinet began to fall on him. He fell flat on his back, and the cabinet crashed down over him but landed with the top part on the diaper genie, which caused it to stop before crushing him.
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Is that a coincidence? I'm not taking any chances. We just had a special family prayer service and thanked our heavenly Father for saving Bryant's life. When I think of how differently this day could have turned out, I can't hold back the tears.
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I'm immediately reminded of the time four years ago when God told me to look at Bailey's car seat as we were leaving a family gathering in Georgia. I discovered that while she was buckled into her seat, we had failed to attach the car seat to the car. I breathed a sigh of thanks when I realized we had driven all the way to Georgia that way earlier in the day.
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About 35 minutes later we were heading down the highway when a car pulled directly into our path, causing us to t-bone them going about 60 miles an hour. We all walked away with minor cuts and bruises. But there is no doubt in my mind that the Lord spared my daughter's life that day. And now, today, I'm thrown at His feet with deepest praise and gratitude again.
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What if it hadn't turned out this way? Where would I be right now? Would I still be able to bless God and praise Him if He had seemingly looked the other way? How do people face unspeakable, seemingly pointless tragedy? It can only be by His grace.
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O Lord, you alone are my hope. I’ve trusted you, O Lord, from childhood. Yes, you have been with me from birth; from my mother’s womb you have cared for me. No wonder I am always praising you!
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My life is an example to many, because you have been my strength and protection. That is why I can never stop praising you; I declare your glory all day long. (Psalm 71:5-8)
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
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Today I ran into Kohl's with Brad and Bailey in search of one particular thing. They sat outside the waiting room while I tried it on. I needed a second opinion, so I called Bailey in to tell me what she thought. Brad wanted to come with her, of course. He walked in and I asked him if he thought I looked okay.
He gave me the once-over and said, "Actually, it doesn't really look good on your arms."
Unfortunately, I was there to buy pants. The shirt used to be a part of my own wardrobe.
Thanks for the confidence boost, son.
Friday, July 11, 2008
I waited and waited and waited for God. At last he looked; finally he listened. He lifted me out of the ditch, pulled me from deep mud.
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He stood me up on a solid rock to make sure I wouldn't slip. He taught me how to sing the latest God-song, a praise-song to our God. More and more people are seeing this: they enter the mystery, abandoning themselves to God.
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Blessed are you who give yourselves over to God, turn your backs on the world's "sure thing," ignore what the world worships; The world's a huge stockpile of God-wonders and God-thoughts. Nothing and no one comes close to you! I start talking about you, telling what I know, and quickly run out of words. Neither numbers nor words account for you.
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Doing something for you, bringing something to you— that's not what you're after. Being religious, acting pious — that's not what you're asking for. You've opened my ears so I can listen.
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So I answered, "I'm coming. I read in your letter what you wrote about me, And I'm coming to the party you're throwing for me." That's when God's Word entered my life, became part of my very being.
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I've preached you to the whole congregation, I've kept back nothing, God—you know that. I didn't keep the news of your ways a secret, didn't keep it to myself. I told it all, how dependable you are, how thorough. I didn't hold back pieces of love and truth for myself alone. I told it all, let the congregation know the whole story.
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Now God, don't hold out on me, don't hold back your passion. Your love and truth are all that keeps me together. When troubles ganged up on me, a mob of sins past counting, I was so swamped by guilt I couldn't see my way clear. More guilt in my heart than hair on my head, so heavy the guilt that my heart gave out.
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Soften up, God, and intervene; hurry and get me some help, so those who are trying to kidnap my soul will be embarrassed and lose face, so anyone who gets a kick out of making me miserable will be heckled and disgraced, so those who pray for my ruin will be booed and jeered without mercy.
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But all who are hunting for you — oh, let them sing and be happy. Let those who know what you're all about tell the world you're great and not quitting. And me? I'm a mess. I'm nothing and have nothing: make something of me. You can do it; you've got what it takes — but God, don't put it off.
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Psalm 40 (The Message)
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Having an INCREDIBLE week at VBS. Lifeway honestly put out the best curriculum for Vacation Bible School that I can ever remember. I have had an amazing time, and I'm so thankful for my teaching team. I hope I can keep them for many years to come.
Know the Truth. Speak the Truth. Live the Truth.
Thursday, July 03, 2008
God is testing me.
I had the opportunity to teach Sunday school last week, and enjoyed it very much. I am a teacher by God's design, and if I'm not teaching in some capacity I am lost and miserable. My soul knows that that's what I'm supposed to do. As Beth Moore says, if every time you learn something new you feel compelled to tell it to everyone around you, you can be pretty sure you've been called to teach.
Anyway, I taught last Sunday on love. As I've blogged before, the Lord has really been working on me in this area. He's reminding me over and over how much can be accomplished just by loving the people I come in contact with. There's so much to be said for the Golden Rule. And if we can just slow down enough to really connect with someone, who knows where God might take that? He's been showing me so much through 1 John and especially 1 Peter lately. They are both packed with instruction on how to live in this world. I felt like I was doing pretty well at this. Until about 1/2 an hour ago.
I just asked Jeff why he moved the garbage cans into the garage a few days ago. Since he bought his new truck, we can't figure out how to get both cars in the garage and still have room to get in and out of them. So there's extra space beside my van, and it's amazing how quickly you can start putting stuff in the middle of the floor when you don't have to make room for a vehicle. But I digress.
He answered my very innocent inquiry by telling me that we had gotten a letter from our homeowner's association informing us that our garbage cans must be moved or we will be fined $100. Apparently, you can see my garbage cans from the road. Apparently our new homeowner's president is suffering from a severe Napoleon complex. I must pause while this hot flash passes over.
May I just say that we have lived in this house for 3 1/2 years, and my garbage cans have been in exactly that same location for the entire duration of our residence? They are strategically placed behind a tree at the corner of my house so that if you are looking at my house straight on, you most certainly will not see them. In fact, the only way you can see my waste receptacles is if you are coming toward my house from the back of my neighborhood. Which means that unless someone actually complained about seeing my trash cans, the person that wrote this letter had to have been driving around looking to see if they could spot any renegade trash so that they could make a list and go home and self-righteously write up their list of demands. Because, you see, if we get fined and refuse to pay it, their next step is to place a lien on my house.
My first instinct right now is to call up Jean Walker and Associates and very politely tell them to pick a cheek as I bend over. Or not so politely. I'm actually somewhat taken back by the level of anger I'm experiencing over this. Jeff didn't even tell me about the letter, so obviously it didn't bend him completely out of shape. Or else he quickly envisioned the previously described scenario and thought it best to keep this on an adult level.
So what is one to do? As I walked in and sat down on the couch and asked God to help me calm down, I was immediately confronted with what the Lord showed me this morning while we were having coffee.
Friends, this world is not your home, so don't make yourselves cozy in it. Don't indulge your ego at the expense of your soul. Live an exemplary life among the natives so that your actions will refute their prejudices. Then they'll be won over to God's side and be there to join in the celebration when he arrives.
Make the Master proud of you by being good citizens. Respect the authorities, whatever their level; they are God's emissaries for keeping order. It is God's will that by doing good, you might cure the ignorance of the fools who think you're a danger to society. Exercise your freedom by serving God, not by breaking the rules. Treat everyone you meet with dignity. Love your spiritual family. Revere God. Respect the government. (1 Peter 2:11-17)
Sigh. There are days that it's easier to walk with God than others.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
When they finished, our music minister dismissed the service. Bailey looked up at me and very innocently said, "Mommy, can we get some Chinese for dinner?"
The power of suggestive advertising. I'm still laughing!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008








Friday, June 20, 2008
Summer Camp
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Right now, Obama is ahead in the polls. But this isn't too concerning, considering the margin is around the same as it was for Kerry over Bush in June of '04. His appeal is definitely hitting some roadblocks, and it's good to see. Al Gore endorsed him yesterday, and that's kind of a political kiss of death. Just ask Howard Dean.
But I think overall I just have kindof a fatalist attitude about the whole thing. The truth is that we don't have a good option. I will vote for John McCain because he's not Obama. I will vote for him because I believe that he is fairly strong on national security. But I will not be waking up early with eager anticipation to get to the booth. (Yes, sadly, that does characterize my past involvement in the political process.)
Not to get weird or anything, but I feel like Obama getting elected would fit pretty nicely with the signs of the times. I think things are coming to a head. There is so much I could say here about Iran, but I don't have time right now and very few of you would want to read it anyway. But I believe the stage is being set for the final battle between good and evil. Militant Islam is on the rise. Iran is led by a madman who refuses to be swayed from his pursuit of nuclear proliferation. He is intent on bringing about the return of the Muslim messiah. And he plans to do so with massive bloodshed, namely that of Americans and Israelis.
If you want to have your mind blown, pick up a copy of "Antichrist: Islam's Awaited Messiah," by Joel Richardson. It is an amazing comparison of Islamic and Christian prophecy. If you're like me, you won't be able to put it down. But in a nutshell, this 12th Imam that Muslims are looking for to return is a dead ringer for the Biblical antichrist. I believe that Islam is Satan's counterfeit for Christianity. And I think there will be an ultimate showdown between the two.
Obama wants to go over and make nice with the Iranian psychopath. He believes we just need to give peace a chance. But unless you can convince me that this diplomacy path will magically change Ahmadenijad's crazy little mind and he'll suddenly decide that his life's work isn't really necessary and become a flag-waving Democrat, then I'll have to believe that we are quickly approaching a climax in this historical conflict.
Our President is hinting around that he plans to do something about Iran before leaving office. It will be fascinating to see if he waits until after the election to do so. Because if Obama gets elected, I think the stakes get higher. If McCain sneaks in there, then I could see W passing the baton. But I guess we'll find out in the next few months.
So sorry to be so doom and gloom. Honestly, that's why I've been avoiding writing about this stuff. And besides that, my worldview has been so radically and permanently changed by the time I spent in India that I never again want to be so wrapped up in what's happening in Washington that I miss out on the things happening in the Kingdom.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
The reason we were there is because the theme for the weekend was "Adventures in Asia." The girls were hopefully there to learn a little bit about missions in Asia. A few weeks ago, Pastor Reverend Kim Cox e-mailed me and asked if I would be willing to go and teach about India. Although I felt a little bit underqualified as a missionary to India, I agreed to go. A couple of days ago, the lady in charge said that Bailey was welcome to come with me if she wanted. I asked her if she'd like to go and she was SO excited. It ended up being a great Mommy/Bailey time together.
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Sunday, June 08, 2008
This time last year...
Saturday, June 07, 2008
I have a great quick story about my mom.
A couple of days ago Mom asked me to pray for her because she was experiencing what she jokingly referred to as a "crisis of belief." She said that she was hearing God tell her to do something that she didn't want to do.
"What?" I asked with wide, curious eyes.
"He's telling me to go to the pool," she said with a grimace. I couldn't help but laugh out loud. For my mom, this is just about as crazy as God asking her to go to Africa. It is WAY out of her comfort zone.
She went on to tell me that she now knew what the bathing suit was for that she said fell in her lap on a recent shopping trip. She certainly wasn't looking for one. But she told me that she knew if she was going to meet her neighbors, this is were they were. She's been wanting to start a small group Bible study in her home, and just didn't know where to begin. So this is what she was praying about when she heard God telling her to go to the pool. I assured her I would pray for her, and did so. I think it's so cool to watch God move in someone's life, and having it be my mom made it that much more special.
Yesterday I received an e-mail from her that had me grinning ear to ear. I'll let her finish the story in her own words:
Okay, After feeling very guilty that I did not go back to the pool last night, I decided to walk up there today and try the key I found. It turned, but the door still wouldn’t open. A lady in the pool saw me and hollered that I had to pull the door really hard. I did and went in and started talking with her. She had just finished her swim and seemed very pleased that I had come. She lives basically behind me, is close to my age and also has not met many neighbors even though she has been here 7 years. We talked about 30 minutes and found a lot in common except the fact that she is from “New Yawk”. She is also interested in finding an occasional walking partner since her husband is working in Clarksville and doesn’t have time to walk anymore. How amazing is that? I did not feel led to bring up church or Bible study yet. I feel that I need to befriend her first. Thanks for your prayers and encouragement to follow through on this. This encounter was definitely a complete affirmation that I did what I was supposed to do.
Love ya,
Mom
Isn't that fantastic? I'm so proud of her for leaping in faith. And who knows, Mom, maybe this is the year you embrace your inner sun goddess! :)
Thursday, June 05, 2008
As all good things must come to an end, we are home from our vacation. We all had a ton of fun at our various locations, but it is nice to be home again as a family.
Last Sunday, Jeff, Brad, Bailey and I all flew to Tampa, FL. Bryant stayed here in Nashville with my fabulous sister, brother-in-law and nephew. Jeff's folks live in The Villages, a huge retirement community about an hour north of Orlando. We rented a car once we got to Tampa and drove to the Villages. We stayed there on Monday and Tuesday, and had two great days going to the pool, riding the golf cart everywhere and eating some yummy meals.
Four nights a week they have craft shows at the Town Square. Here's Bradley checking out some windchimes. They also have live music every night, and plenty of dancing. It's really a great place to get to visit your grandparents!
One of our favorite places to go other than Mimi's house is a frozen custard store called Ollie's. There is something intoxicating about this stuff! Bradley had a hot fudge sundae every night. He was in heaven!
Jeff's parents live right on a wildlife reserve, and Tuesday morning I looked out the window to see a family of cranes just leisurely strolling down the street. It was so funny. They really looked like they were just out for a walk, completely unbothered by their human neighbors.


Around 2:00, I looked down the beach about 50 yards to see a large crowd of people assembled around what looked to be a body. I walked over to see if I could find out what was going on, and found out they had pulled a man up out of the water who had been floating face down. There's no telling how long he had been there. People walking by assumed he was just snorkeling. But one man realized something was wrong and pulled him out. 911 was called, and the paramedics came quickly. The worked on this guy for probably 30 minutes before finally declaring him dead. It was horrible.
It turns out that the man had a seizure disorder, having had one as recently as that morning. Apparently he had one while he was in the water and no one was around to notice his distress. His poor wife just looked on while they tried to resuscitate her husband to no avail. I watched from my chair, and it was just pitiful. (By the way, I honestly didn't take pictures of it for my blog. I took a few from my chair far away for Jeff because he wasn't there at the time. I don't want you to think I'm a sicko or anything.)
I've never seen anything like that in person before. It was so disturbing to know that this couple had come to the beach just like Jeff and I had, and now she was going to have to go home without him. I have no idea if there are kids, where they were from or anything. Just that she has suffered a horrible loss.
As I lay in my chair processing all of this, I just kept wondering how many people had seen him floating there without noticing anything was amiss. If you just glanced his direction, snorkeling would have seemed perfectly logical as there were plenty of folks doing it. It made me think about how many people we encounter every day that we don't really pay close attention to. How many of them appear to be just fine, when they are actually drowning?
Lately I've heard God telling me to be less self-absorbed and more aware of the people I encounter every day. He's told me to love them. Not to try and save everyone, but just to love them. We are called to share his love... isn't that how the song goes? People need the Lord.
So I'm trying to look up more, smile more. I used to be really outgoing when I was young, but something has happened over the past 15 years or so and I have become much more introverted. I don't know why that is, but I'm attempting to make a change. Who knows how a smile and kind word might completely change the course of someone's day?
As I was walking this morning, I purposefully waved and smiled at every car that went by. I was surprised at how few waved back. I'm sure they were thinking about what was waiting on them at work and a hundred other things. But the fewer people that waved back, the more I was determined to wave. By the time I got home I was grinning from ear to ear.
I think loving people is going to be kind of fun.
For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. (2 Corinthians 2:15)