It occurred to me tonight as I was sitting and laughing with the girls in my Bible study that I feel different today. I have actually experienced joy today, more than once. What is so awesome about this is that I've been praying for God to restore my joy, and I know some of you have been praying that over me as well. Isn't it spectacular when God answers a prayer, and you know it could have only come from Him?

For a lot of reasons, joy has escaped me since I've been home from India. There have been moments where I would start to experience it, and then it was like Satan came out of nowhere and just snatched it right back. It's truly the closest I've ever felt to depression, and it's not fun.

I was talking to a friend yesterday about the feelings of guilt I've had over joy. It's as if it wasn't right for me to be joyful after everything I saw and experienced in India, even though a lot of what I saw is amazing and beautiful and there is much to be joyful about in that wonderful place. But it's like I've put this burden on myself that until I figure out exactly everything God wants to teach me right now, I'm not allowed to have joy. And I know that's the last thing He would want.

If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. (John 15:10-11)

I just want to praise Him for hearing my prayer and answering. I feel like each day brings me closer to victory. I know that the journey before me is long, but it feels so good to know I'm not walking it alone.

Give thanks to the LORD, for He is good. His love endures forever!